:: M squared T ::

:: Friday, September 19, 2003 ::

Busyness and Creativity

Whatever readers I have left may have noticed that I have been blogging more and more infrequently. This does not in itself disturb me; however, I have discovered that I am reflecting less in general than I have previously.

I have found myself so busy with day-to-day activities that my reflection that lies behind my blogging and my journaling has diminished considerably. Over the last three weeks, I have started to take one day off every week: a day where I do not do any work for the church, any schoolwork, and no work for the house.

I thought I would use that time for relaxation and reflection. But then I discovered that I have been so busy that I don't have any activities left that I enjoy outside of work and school. My interests have been re-focused.

This realization left me in a state of shock and perhaps even horror at the fact that I have lost something so integral to my life - the ability to come up with creative pursuits that I can enjoy separate from my academics and church work.

I used to enjoy building things - model railroading, etc.; I used to enjoy reading Greek and Latin and translating it just for fun; I used to enjoy repair projects; I used to enjoy camping; I used to enjoy music.

Now my only relaxation seems to be sleep.

I have lost something, and I must fight to get it back.

:: Matt 9/19/2003 01:50:00 PM :: permalink :: ::
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